Need

I was lying there, my whole body almost trembling, of need, of lust, wanting so much to feel the pain. I felt the need of feeling him, the need of giving myself to him, letting him whip me, pinch me, torment me, torment my skin, my body, my buttocks.. A need so big, that I whimpered of need alone, felt how the need almost took, and takes away my power and strength..

A need so big that I sometimes just don't know what to do with it at all. On one side, it is humiliating to be such a slut in wanting the submission and pain so much, and being that slut, again and again and again.. On the other hand, loving the recognition of who I am, loving the pleasure of feeling the strenght in my very feminine lust.

I have never felt this way before, being so filled up by need in way so that I will never quite feel, I had enough.. Even when he hits me the hardest or most accurate, and I know I just can't cope any longer, the need is back again with the same strength, a few moments later..

As I was laying there, he let me. He let me feel the horse whip, again and again, on my buttocks, so they went warm and very red. They were still red, hours later. And they felt sore in a way so that I could still feel it when I next time went to bed. The tenderness of skin that always comes as a small surprise, when I lay down in my bed, until I remember.. Remember and feel the warmth flushing through every corner of my body, again.. the need.